Today was the most terrible thing i ever did. i was applying my CDC/CCC bursary. Thus i went to the photocopy some of my document with my friends. And here it goes my friend saw my parent divorced document and she asked if she mind reading it. My mind told that I MIND but my heart said i don't mind, go ahead. and so i lent her. And once i had, i regretted. after reading what she read i felt so upset. and i hatred myself for being so stupid to lend this confidential family background info to someone. sigh. i really hatred myself to be so coward into rejecting people. I'm so stupid. i always have this mindset that if rejected people they will get hurt i did not what see that so resisted myself and let them go ahead. But after it seems so stupid. And i have to learn from it but I always can't, can't get through this... after thinking through i felt so much sorry when i faced my mom and i do not have the guts to tell her what i had just did. in another way i had terribly betrayed her . i really feel like stabbing a knife into my heart. after all i have done and i have noone but to blame myself however, i still have that guts to blame on my friend. SIGH ! i hatred myself so much.

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